Back in the Swing of Nothing

This morning I woke up uber early and headed off to Fillmore St. I texted TDD for coffee and we had a blast chatting, sipping our respective caffeine liquids, cracking up jokes, and laughing our butts off. God I love his wacky sense of humor. But the silly man didn't tell me it was his birthday! I later found out on Facebook. Bah!

Then I went and got glued to work. The boss's boss called me to tell me that my boss has moved on. Very big sad face. I really liked him. He's so freaking awesome. I gotta find out where he goes when he gets back from the Winter Music Fest. Loved work today, time just flew by and I had to force myself to get out of the office before it got dark.

Then Jason texted me for drinks.

J: I'm sorry, G. How are you doing?
Me: I am well.
J: G, I would ask you for a drink some evening if I thought you would accept; I'm sorry I have not been more social.
Me: sure we can do drinks.. only if you decide to actually talk.
J: Promise - I'm completely free every evening but Tuesday. Tadich Grill or similar?
Me: you picked the last place. My turn.
J: I'm staying within nine blocks of my office.
Me: Some other time then. I'm not up for that
J: Where did you have in mind?
Me: Bisous
J: I can leave at 5:30. Can you use a ride?
Me: I'm already home
Me: Let's do Thurs

Jesus H Christ. Why do I bother? He's an anti-social, anti-gadgety (I'm rather surprised he even texts!), anti-fun, anti-adventurous, overthinking killjoy. He's preparing for and living for a day that will never come, while life passes him by. Life's a banquet and this poor fool is starving to death. He should know it by now, considering how much I carp at him. God, I'm such a bitch to him it makes me feel bad afterwards. I never intend to be mean to him, but I do not mince words or hold the punches. My words to him are blunt, brutal, and true. And dealing with him is like dealing retard some times. He doesn't talk, doesn't have a personality, and if it weren't for his very good looks and drop dead gorgeous body, we could have been two ships passing in the night. If only.

As for TDD, I'm not sure what I'm doing with him. I told him flat out I wanted to hang out and see where it goes. So far, we had coffee this morning. Hahahaha. C'mon boy, we're not getting any younger. He turned 37 today! He's a bit on the selfish side... like me. But otherwise, I really do want to know where it can lead to. Not holding my breath though. Easy come, easy go.