Mea Culpas in the mail...

From Equity guy:

Hey babe,

Sorry for being an ass yesterday. Normally not like that. By way of explanation for said ass-like behavior:
1) I had fun with you yesterday
2) Was looking for your yelp reviews and was thrown off when it seemed like you were recently looking for bc rx.
3) Was thrown off even more when you told me you had what I thought was a current FWB.
4) Was thrown off even more when you said you don't know me from Adam. Curious to me considering that you had invited me for kinkiness in your bed last Sunday, were asking about makeout spots yesterday, and call me honey, babe, etc. Do you do those things with a ton of guys you don't know from Adam? lol

So, obviously either of us are free to sleep with or date anyone we choose at any time. Sorry for being an ass about it yesterday. Let me know if you'd still like to hang out, although I'm guessing no since you removed me as your FB friend already. ;) If you have mentally already moved on, then adieu, it was great getting to know you!

E

From Jason:

To talk, G. To meet with the desire to talk and not pretend like we
have nothing to talk about. That is all I've wanted for as long as I
can remember.

I have made so many mistakes I can't count them.
The feeling that you have meant more to me than I ever meant to you is
a feeling that is always with me and has been the reason, as far as I
can see it, for the difficulty in sustaining a friendship.
I know these mistakes would just continue as long as we're without
closure and an understanding of just how each other feels / has felt
for six years.
My (selfish) desire to be anything more than an acquaintance with you
is gone for the sole reason that it is what you have communicated is
the extend of your desire for me.
I accept that and respect your wishes.
I wish we could end this cycle and just talk.


I'll always forgive you for anything no matter what it is;and I still
hope for the best for you.

Forgive me,

Jason

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Well Jason's a no brainer. But Equity guy on the other hand...Jesus H Christ did he flip out. I dated one super nasty psycho, don't want another one, though he probably is the lesser version. I got that sick feeling in my tummy, the way I used to get sick to my stomach when Johnny would flip out. I didn't throw up the way I would with Johnny. This event was so mild and Johnny was so sick. But I want no reminders, no triggers, nothing to remind me of those times. I'm not even going to bother replying to any one of them. Just go away already.