Escaped a fool

Parting words by Equity guy:

E: Yeah, tons of pressure: to not fuck someone else while dating me. Lol. Sex means more to you than finding someone who truly cares for you. Have fun being used for your body and using him for his. Very shallow. Take care.

Wow... what a judgmental fool. I decided not to reply. Why get in that fight? As if I didn't care for Fonzi... or B, or Serendipstick. I care for them all, just not in a way his closed mindedness would ever understand. Besides, we went on 3 dates over the course of 2 months. That's not dating. That's never achieving lift off, much less crashing and burning.

You win some, you lose some. In the world of dating one is bound to run into a few pricks. That was one of them. He took our meagre time together (all of 3 hours total, for all 3 dates) to be serious dating so he can claim exclusivity? Bitch please. You are no easy going guy, but a child thwarted and now throwing fighting words around. That was a test. You failed. Goodbye.

I had more meaning, more fun, more of everything I have ever wanted in a relationship in the 5 days I was with Serendipity than the 2 months I had of contact with Equity guy. And because of those 5 days, I know what kind of guy I need in my life. I know what kind of personality I need to look for, what kind of person I should be with to be happy, to be safe, to be whole again. I will look for this feeling of wholeness, this sweetness of being, now that I know what it is, in every guy I date.

As for my current lovers... I love them all in their own way. Everyone is different and so I love them differently. Just like you talk to some people differently than you do with others. B, I love B always, regardless of his tool-ishness lately, because he was there for me when the chips were down. I love Fonzi because he gets my sense of humor, because he makes me laugh, and because we have a mutual love of hedonism. I love S because... well, he's a sign from Manna or Karma or whatever. He's the neon sign that says "this way...". And he squired my best friends and I around SF doing all the touristy things, being the nicest gentleman possible. There is sweetness and love in all that, in being friends, in being light, in being accepting. These lovers have contributed many wonderful moments to my life, so I love them all. But of course, I love me most :)