One Week Flame, sex not included

R: I think you are cool. I am thinking we should not complicate things with sex. I would rather us be friends than risk not working out and then not talking again.
R: Sorry to be so complicated.
Me: what are you afraid of?
R: I don't know. I just moved up here and was in a long, long distance thing and I want to just do what I want when I want. I don't want to complicate anything. I want to hang out with new/old friends and enjoy the summer. I realize all my sentences started with "I". I think there is a reason for that. Sorry it took me so long to find the words. I had to figure it out myself, which is why I didn't shag the shit out of your sexiness.
R: I just think once we start it will become a bf/gf thing and I don't want that right now.You are really fun- hope we can continue our new friendship.
R: I am trying to be adult about it and looking at things carefully. I have not done that in the past and kind of just gone with it. I think I need to be more careful. This is just a lessons learned thing I am trying to apply. Anyway, you are sexyfun- no trouble finding guys.
Me: damn, now this is getting me all upset. Never mind.
Me: I like you, a lot. Maybe thats the problem
R: Arr, ok sorry. We should get back to work for now anyway.
Me: sure I can get guys around every corner. But once in a while you meet someone special. And then he tells you he wants to be just friends
Me: now I'm really gonna go and cry
R: Aiy, don't do that.
Me: why not? I feel like someone just stole all my cookies
R: Nobody is getting your cookies.
Me: I want a best friend. I want to fall in love with my best friend.
Me: you just stole all my cookies
R: I won't eat them
Me: I think I've been through this before. The awesome guy wants to be friends. Then he meets some girl that knocks his socks off. As his "friend" I get to watch that happen
R: Christ. That is not going to happen

Fuck. The tears started falling down my face before I could hold them back. Fuck, fuck, fuck. This is why I fucking HATE being emotionally involved.

The Rhetoric guy is picking me up for a date tonight. I better repair my makeup before then. Rhetoric wanted to hang out in SF, but it's bleeping cold here, plus we might run into Serendipstick..

Oh gosh I forgot! Date Auction guy's date is tomorrow! I gotta call him! Yikes!