Slow Time

So I went and took a nap. When I woke up I was still woozy and out of it. I don't think my body can really handle partying Wednesday, Thursday, Friday, AND Saturday all in a row. So I texted Tia and R I wasn't feeling good and staying home.

Then I started loading laundry and cleaning my room. I need to get some boxes to put my books away and to start the moving process. My mind started making a list of things I need to do... and bounced to finding a lover that can cuddle. And with a sex drive even. Lord, what is wrong with men these days? Brian has pot to keep him company, NYE guy hasn't and probably won't contact me for quite some time, and Dutch guy has a pretty low sex drive himself. Jesus... when have the genders reversed themselves like this???

And I want a lover that can hold me, put strong arms around me and hold me tight. When I want this, they start thinking I'm in love and freak out and shit. Sorry boys, but I know the difference between passion and love. I'm looking for passion. Love can bite me right now. Oh passion is so damn difficult!