Better people

I've been thinking about character a lot lately. The kind of character I like to cultivate in my friends and the kind of character I have. I like to think I expect a lot out of my friends and I like to think that they all pass muster. Friends care for one another, respect one another with trust and honesty. That's expecting a lot out of people, I know. But I don't want friends I can't respect, trust, or be honest with. And some times friends are not all I'd hope them to be. We are all let down every now and then.

Nodak let me down. He wasn't what I had hoped; didn't show me enough respect to air grievances. Some times I let myself down by not speaking up for myself to others. The acquaintances I know let me down a little through lack of character and lack of courage and relegate themselves to be forever just acquaintances.

After crying my eyes out during Thanksgiving, I really have to take a look at the relationships in my life, find the good and the bad, and prioritize my life in a way that is respectful to myself. I have to be a better person, surround myself with better people, and always strive for character.

As I have no family to speak of, I have to create a family of my own through close bonds and undying friendships. In this regard, I have the luxury of choosing who to call family. For my own sanity, I have to be careful with this.