Ricky was very inviting and very sweet. And now that he's moving to LA in a month or so I find him that much sweeter! But I didn't bite. This celibacy thing is hard on me, as I wake up missing snuggles. I go to bed missing snuggles. My body craves being touched. But I don't bite. B went and tore his achilles, I rolled my ankle, so we're all just a bunch of gimps for now. But I'm not going back there. I think it best to preserve our friendship now.
But this whole celibacy thing is hard. I don't do well without sexual attention. But I must learn and cope. Hooking up and swinging from person to person can't be good. I'm trying to be wiser and do good things for myself. I'm trying to take care of me better than I have. I don't think sexual distractions is good for my healing soul and mind.
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